I AM PATHETIC, SNACKS.... AND 'CLEAN EATING'

I AM PATHETIC, SNACKS.... AND 'CLEAN EATING'

Yesterday Bex and I did a very MODEST 20 minute walk... and by last night I felt so, so tired!
PATHETIC.    How the bloody HELL did I let myself get so unfit???
So overweight AGAIN??

I am so angry with myself.  And sad.
SAD that once again I have to lose it all... and get fit again.

5 years WASTED, when I could have been fit and happy with myself. *sigh*

MOVING ON.

SNACKS:  I am really scared of even having one snack during the day.  Scared that it will be the beginning of over snacking.  I've done it before.  I know my own weaknesses.  Snacking is a HUGE one for me.
So... no snacking I think.  Which makes it a bit hard when one is a diabetic!  I get the shakes REALLY BADLY by late afternoon.

When this happened in the past I'd quickly make myself a peanut butter sandwich, then I'd be OK again.

I don't want to eat peanut butter sandwiches anymore.

I'll leave this problem in the 'too hard' basket for now... any ideas... gimme!

CLEAN EATING:  what the f*#@ is with this 'saying'?  What is 'CLEAN' food ... and if it's not CLEAN... does that make it DIRTY then?   Explain this someone.  (OK, I do get what someone kinda means when they say it, but come on!) 

Say this to a kid and try to explain it eh?  

"Griffin you cannot eat THAT, it's dirty"

Hmmmm... thought provoking me thinks.
Perhaps it would be better to say 'Good' or 'Bad'?

Here is a photo of me sushi from last night (Stew's plateful):

ABOVE: they were all chicken... some with teriyaki sauce, some with cranberry sauce, and differing stuff inside too.  I asked Stew to bring home another bottle of Cranberry Sauce ....

ABOVE:  and that is what he brought home!  I didn't like the Sweet & Sour, the Teriyaki was too strong, but I do like the Plum and Cranberry.  I'm not even going to worry about how much sugar or whatever is in it... it's yum and that's all there is to it!   It's not like I drank a whole bottle full... *SMILES*

Lastly for now, a really cute video of Teddy after the bath Lacy gave him yesterday:


ABOVE:  poor bugger.  He's been in a cone for two months already.

ONWARD...

It is a stunning day!  And I'm loving the quiet leisurely mornings once the kids are at school. Some mornings I walk around in me nightie for an hour or more!  Luckily no one has knocked on me door ... me in my nightie ain't a good look!

Going out soon, just for the hell of it!  Spotlight, here we come!

So frustrated, so, so angry right now and the worst thing?  I CANNOT say a word here or anywhere about it.  But ... thanks to seeing a psychologist for the best part of 6 months I am LEARNING to let things go.  At least I can thank 'someone' for that, but then again, I wouldn't have NEEDED to see a health professional to help with depresson if it wasn't for 'someone'.  Grrrrrr.

Retail therapy, here I come!  dum dee doooo....

WOW... who needs a slap then?
My little rant above was NOT anything to do with a person in HAMILTON.  
If I wanted to rant about HER, it would be on my PRIVATE blog.  
Another daughter of mine is driving me nuts right now.... and she knows it.  And OMG she's on the phone right now going on and on at me... maybe I should hang up ... yep. I did.

Oi CRANKY:  yes I think I got all your emails!  I've not updated P.I.Y. in a while cos all is going well!  Shock horror!

Right, now that I'm feeling better (Ha!  I ended up hanging up on a certain pain in the butt 3 times today!)..I will show you what I bought today:

ABOVE:  two gorgeous bath towels (half price), a beach towel (half price), a metre of fabric (20% off) a new card cutting punch, and some metallic paper.  Just love that Spotlight shop!

I am now going down to the garage to sew... yaaaa.

ABOVE: yaaa, another cot sheet done.  I love this one.  The other thing I did was continue working on a UFO, something I started about a year ago ... I should have it finished in a day or two.

It is Bex's turn to cook tonight.  She is doing a beef stir fry.  Should be nice.... even though I'm probably not going to have any!  I had a large salad for lunch, so am not hungry at all yet.

LEIGH: that is a novel idea.  Teddy has the same problem every summer... His skin goes bright pinky/red and he whimpers and cries and can't keep still.... suggests it is an allergy.  

He has been on Steroids and Anti Inflammatory medication before, but as they will shorten his life, I only use them when he is really bad.
Actually, now that I think about it, he probably SHOULD have gone on them this summer, but I've been a bit distracted.

Poor bugger.  He has been a bit neglected this summer.  Now I feel bad.

End of Day:  well...it's been an up and down sort of day.  Glad it's over.
nite nite.